sometimes during spar i get flawed and the blood vessels in my head pop and i bleed inside my head. i clench my butt cheeks trying to hold on to the win but still get the L. i release my tight, clutched hands and start to cry. i then leave the Multiplex green room and go into the Multiplex orange room. At this point, several players call me a 'selective sparrer' but i have no idea what it means and it makes me very angry as my face turns bright purple in agony. i do not understand. someone help me. is it an insult?.