I'd like to start off by saying that I have a form of autism that was previously known as "Asperger's Syndrome".
Basically, I feel that anyone that I talk to is just trying to be nice (or not). Some people are either TOO nice (like they're being fake), or they're just straight-up rude. How can I make and keep friends when I have autism?
Some of the symptoms of this disorder include:
* Difficulty maintaining eye contact
* Difficulty managing social situations
* Unable to respond appropriately in verbal interactions
* Unable to decipher facial expressions or body language
* Unable to show emotions, may seem emotionally robotic
* May focus solely on their own needs
* Focus in on specific subjects they are interested in. Usually the topic is very literal.
* Resistant to change. May expect the same thing to occur day after day.
(Notes taken from https://healthery.com/diseases-condi...CAAEgJk4PD_BwE)
I unfortunately wasn't diagnosed until the age of 13. I had shown symptoms ever since I was around 6 months old, but the doctor said that I'd outgrow it. I never did. So, I had never received early treatment for the disorder, which is crucial for living anything close to a "normal" life.
The thing is: I REALLY do care for other people's feelings, I just don't know how to help. I feel so trapped. Much like a paraplegic person can't fully move their body, I can't fully use my mind. It's damaged, permanently from autism. I feel hopeless and so, so lonely :'( Please help me.