Why is your friendship circle so garbage (no ill will)? Like your friends or ex friends with the most angsty 11 year olds. No wonder you wished you never existed, I would be driven to absolute madness.
"The world is being much helped by the suffering of the poor people" -Mother Teresa
Spoiler
"Apple seeds average around 0.6mg hydrogen cyanide (HCN) per gram of dry seed. Since the lethal dose of HCN is estimated to be around 50mg, you will need around 85 grams of dry seeds. This is around half a cup... it requires a lot of apples."