you know what bro I used to be the same way but you are worth it buddy, live your dreams and everytime someone says you cant do it everytime someone says your not good enough and everytime someone says your better off dead, use that as fuel, fuel towards your success let it push you to your limits and well past them, prove them wrong and make it. dont stop till you win and in the end you will succeed never settle and never stop pushing yourself, when you find yourself, and stop finding other people, once u stop trying to impress people that wouldnt do the same for you, you will be happy. It starts with you if you need someone to talk to kik me at _PatrickWoods_
follow your dreams and finish your goals and when you finally do it, that will be a huge testament to the doubters but most importantly yourself